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Posted on Jul 04, 2015 at 07:56 AM

So Im finally getting some help with post-natal depression,having some counselling and am on anti-depressants which suitable to take whilst Im still breastfeeding,Im not honestly sure what good they are doing other than that I feel numb really......this is helpful sometimes as Im finding my emotions hard to deal with right now.....my Dad died last month,the day after my sons first birthday so that was pretty shit.......it was unexpected as even though he was terminally ill he always managed to pull through but not this time......Im so glad I was with him the week before he died,he told me he was afraid of dying in pain and Im so glad that he went peacefully but the loss of him is just too much to bear sometimes .......Im not sure what grief is meant to feel like and Im sure its different for everyone but I dont think I can feel it properly due to my meds,I cant cry in front of my kids as I dont want to upset them but keeping all my feelings squished inside is proving difficult as inevitably something manages to leak out and its hard for me to control it which is the link to the title......



all I want is to be more like me,less like you.....
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Posted on Nov 02, 2015 at 05:08 PM

Meds can help if you do other things as well to beat the bb's. My sister is still in BB's after her second and he just turned 10!! So glad you're gettign some treatment. You're so smart and wise to do whatever you can to help yourself. Hormones are a mutha fucka! I'm so sorry your Daddy is gone. But he's still with you and you can tap into that love he gave you anytime you want. It took many years for me to stop crying for my Dad. Now I just appreciate seeing him in me. I hope I don't get Parkinson's and cancer like him I already have the painful thyroid growth but I try not to be scared. I just lost my life long friend to lung Cancer. People are dropping like flies and I have like 3 local friends...I guess...everyone is just an aquaintence to me. They say they are my friends but seldom hang out with me. I hope you have friends around you if not you do here..*virtual hugs*. 


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Posted on Aug 01, 2015 at 09:34 AM

thanks Noodles xx



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Posted on Jul 14, 2015 at 10:44 PM

So sorry Love for your loss.

-Many hugs from an Old Noodles


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