Quoting VtheDeadBarbie:

When I'm alone, I'm always alone..
I think of the deep internal pain.
Neglect,abandonment, abuse, molestation, rape, deception...
Life's bitch slap.
These things aren't apart of me, but they help shape me.
Truth is, the pain never goes away and the images never die.
This pain lies in the core of my soul and clouds my judgements.
Anxiety, depression, hate, apathy, loneliness, sadness..
a few symptoms to name.
Busy, stay busy...and you'll forget..
a tricky tricky lie.
emotions act as pressure and eventually explodes.
apart of me dies.
No longer happily social, no longer outgoing and friendly.
Caution, judgement....I stand at a distance.
I have been to rock bottom and it's become my home.
I have nothing left to lose, nothing to be threaten with.
empty, hopeless, and waiting to leave this body.
the same body my soul is forced to live in..
forced to suffer life's cruelty.
I find myself dead inside like those in a cemetery.
No longer fearing death, I welcome it..yearn for it.
the memories will come...and they'll come heavily.
and in that moment..
that point in time..
apart of me dies.

When I'm alone, I'm always alone..
I think of the deep internal pain.
Neglect,abandonment, abuse, molestation, rape, deception...
Life's bitch slap.
These things aren't apart of me, but they help shape me.
Truth is, the pain never goes away and the images never die.
This pain lies in the core of my soul and clouds my judgements.
Anxiety, depression, hate, apathy, loneliness, sadness..
a few symptoms to name.
Busy, stay busy...and you'll forget..
a tricky tricky lie.
emotions act as pressure and eventually explodes.
apart of me dies.
No longer happily social, no longer outgoing and friendly.
Caution, judgement....I stand at a distance.
I have been to rock bottom and it's become my home.
I have nothing left to lose, nothing to be threaten with.
empty, hopeless, and waiting to leave this body.
the same body my soul is forced to live in..
forced to suffer life's cruelty.
I find myself dead inside like those in a cemetery.
No longer fearing death, I welcome it..yearn for it.
the memories will come...and they'll come heavily.
and in that moment..
that point in time..
apart of me dies.

Quoting bonnsterthemonster:

I can relate. That's why I choose to kick ass and have as much fun as possible and try not to worry. Try and not let the PTSD ruin my life. Ducker Foods will get theirs.

I can relate. That's why I choose to kick ass and have as much fun as possible and try not to worry. Try and not let the PTSD ruin my life. Ducker Foods will get theirs.